من! یک سوسک گواتمالایی راه راه

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Remember the change i talked about two posts down? It happend.And as i expected...i miss my boring routine.Well...i still have my routine but with a pinch of constant stress and a hint of depression and a spoonful of anger.My boring routine is the same but its not. Its not cozy anymore it just feels like a sad attempt to try salvage what remains of my former and less stressed self.There's this thing i do , i always have a series or a movie on. It started as a harmless way of helping my English but it tued into a toxic tool to shut out the tiny but very real voices in my head. A tool to stop the ovethinking.Its been 68 days now.I haven't tued it off for 68 days.Its still playing in the background.I cant trust my brain anymore.What if i pause the movie and i overthink? What if after i overthink i fall deeper into the depression i tried my hardest to get out of for years?What if i end up regretting the decisions i made along the way?Oh fuck. Im overthing already aren't I?...OH FUCK ◂  جمعه ۱۸ آذر ۱۴۰۱،  سوسک گواتمالایی راه راه     من! یک سوسک گواتمالایی راه راه...